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Since I have been completely ignoring my physical health lately, I thought it would make for a perfect blog entry.

I have played baseball almost my entire life.  Since I played a lot of baseball I had to stay in great physical condition which meant I had to work out a lot.  I learned to love working out and it has become quite the coping mechanism. I feel like it relieves stress and gives me a chance to release energy like I can do during the day while I’m at work. You see, I like working out late at night and working out for a long time. As you can tell I have somewhat of a passion for working out and I have learned something important:

The hardest part about working out is walking through the front doors of the gym.

The block for myself is finding reason enough to get up off the couch, go put on my Under Armour, and driving 2 miles to the gym. I have to be intentionally motivated to stop doing what I have been doing and change my actions to put in the work to gain a result. Once I get to the gym and get going, nothing is going to stop me until I feel like I am done. Like myself, I highly doubt that when you start working out you are just going to give up, pack it in, and go home.

I think this idea also applies to my relationship with God. The hardest part of growing closer to God is taking the first step.  At times, it’s tough closing my eyes and praying that first word. It’s tough opening up the cover of my Bible to read the Word of God.  And yeah, it’s extremely hard to invite Christ into your heart to be your Savior. Why are these things so hard to do? Why is there always a mental block to that first step of faith towards God? I have no idea, but I do know the first step is always the hardest for me.

I’m not sure how I jump over the first step hurdle that is always in my way.  But the more I jump over the hurdle, the easier is the next time.

So I have seen a ton of these come through on Facebook lately.  Kind of a crazy little trend right now, but I thought I would put mine on my blog instead.

1. I secretly love to sing (and would love to believe I am halfway decent at it)
2. I have a kat named kitty
3. My favorite band[s] of all time are Five Iron Frenzy and Casting Crowns.
4. I’m a geek that doesn’t own any form of an iPod
5. I am a Linux (more specifically, Ubuntu) fanboy
6. My secret addiction is Puffs Kleenex with Vicks.
7. I have a brother that is 14 years older than me.
8. I love building things with my hands (think wood working stuff).
9. I really enjoy helping other people even if they take it for granted.
10. I love being sarcastic.
11. I don’t dance like a white person.
12. I drink Sweet tea by the gallon.
13. I was named after my grandfather – Charles Wheatley Boleyn
14. I have a motorcycle.  More specifically, a red Honda CBR600RR.  And I like to drive it very fast
15. My family used to go to the beach for vacation every summer.  I wish we would resume that tradition.
16. Due to a traumatic experience when I was younger, I hate meatloaf.  Meatloaf is the only food that I refuse to eat.
17. My feet are so flat, it’s not even funny.  Trust me, these dogs are always bark’in.
18. I do not like watching horror movies.  I just don’t enjoy the feeling I get while I watch them
19. My two coping mechanisms (for when I’m frustrated, angry, mad) are cleaning and working out.
20. No matter the time or place, the kryptonite to this Superman is BBQ chicken.
21. I will pwn you at Bible trivia! (Yes, I said pwn.  If you don’t know what that means, go ask your kids)
22. I get most of my shirts from GAP, pants from GAP, and shoes from Sketchers.  Even thought I am starting to pick up a few shirts from Express lately.
23. I’m extremely picky about the shoes I wear.  I prefer flip flops (even in the winter)
24. I have rheumatoid arthritis
25. I can’t think of something for the last one, but since I said I was going to tell you 25 things I have to have something here to fill in the blank.

I’m up late working so I thought I would share this little blurb with you.

I had lunch today with a good friend of time.  As we were talking, my friend admitted several events from past decisions.  They were large, life changing decisions, but they didn’t shock me.  My friend then said, “I hope this doesn’t change the way that you see me and the kind of person you think that I am.”

I told my friend that those past decisions didn’t affect the way I viewed them. I also told my friend that God doesn’t judge us on just a couple of our decisions either so why should I look at you any different than the way God looks at you?

I’m just sayin.

I just bought the coolest pair of shoes ever.  They are so freakin comfortable.

They are Sketchers and I love them!  You can go buy yourself a pair here.  I don’t know what it is, but I just have this thing for white shoes.  I think they look so stinking cool!

Been pondering a lot lately what I want to with my life.  Came up with a lot of ideas, but no final conclusion.  That’s not out of the ordinary, but I do have a strongly increasing burning desire.

I want to sing.  Yep, that’s right; I said it.  I want to sing, loudly.  I like singing passionately at a high volume.  Honestly, that’s all I think that shows what’s really attached to my words.  I want to belt it out like my life depended on it (or someone else’s life for that matter).

How do I go about doing this?  Not sure yet, but I’m working on it.  Hmm, maybe it’s time I stop trying to work on it and really start praying about it.  And no, I haven’t really prayed about this before.  I mean I’ve chit-chatted about this with God in passing conversation, but no “spilling my guts confessional dialog” on the subject. I want to find someone to really help hone my skills.  That would be my ideal plan, but things don’t exactly how I plan them most of the time.

We’ll see where this goes from here but I think now is a perfect time to do something with this misshappen desire.  I can’t fathom how this would come about, but it’s what I am passionate about.  Oh yeah, I don’t have to fathom it.  I just have to walk in the tracks laid out for me when the time arrises.